Sunday, May 8, 2011 @ 10:14 PM
That particular slap you have given me, I swear I will never forget. You keep stressing me with those 6A1. Whenever I go out , you will start scolding me , LOOK! I need to relieve myself right? I talk to people over the phone , you also unhappy. What the fish do you want? Please , I need some space for my own self. No matter how much I show you , you also unhappy . K , then send me to other country if that please you. I don't see the importance of my presence. Probably , everything will be even better without me and I will be able to get over everything at another country. Please stop stressing me , I just need everyone's understanding right now. I miss the beach , standing at the shore where the water rushes to my feet. Those feelings are so great. I hope I am still a child and never grow up , I won't face all these problems , I don't have to be worried of anything.
I really hate myself , seriously hate myself. I don't even want to look at my phone now , really feel like throwing it away. I really wanna go somewhere to scream! Wanna scream out loud. I miss the feeling when I lie on a patch of grass and look up into the sky. Those little stars blinking. Remember myself asking you for stars. I just want all these to get over as soon as possible.
I am someone who is not worth at all , I am just a bitch. You deserve someone better, someone who loves you. Someone who go through all difficulties with you , someone who is 24/7 for you.
I really envy those girls with beautiful looks , beautiful figures , beautiful characters and smart brain. I don't get any of these. Such a failure right? I really want to give up everything , can I run away from the reality and never face it ? My life is full of bullshit! but who gives a damn to it ?