I miss you and I still love you a lot , but that's the only right decision for both of us. This is the second time when I cried really hard, shouting to myself saying I still love you a lot but I have to leave you. I know I have made many promises with you , saying I wanna travel the world with you holding my hands. saying that I wanna marry you when I grow up. Many promises are make , I am sorry to break them. You suit a better girl , someone who won't break you heart , someone who won't make you tear. You shouldn't tear for girl like me. I am not suit for your standard at all. yes , I cry a lot and in fact I am tearing right now cause I never thought of leaving you. The part that hurts me most is to remove the ring from my finger , kissing the ring one last time and place it in a box. I still hugged the toys you have given to me. I miss your voice really a lot. I am sorry but I have to leave you. There is a reason to it but you don't have to know. But I swear , I never play with your feelings at all. Is up to you if you think that I am playing with you , just think that I am a bitch will do. I really love you a lot. I still can't get over you.

Saturday , drank a lot. Went really drunk , thanks for wiping off my tears , giving me tissue. Lending me your shoulder for me to lie on , taking care of me during midnight. thank you so much!!!

Sunday , cried the most. Thanks people for being by my side all the times. Went to walk around with Wei jie in the evening , comforting me and wiping off the tears. And went for a talk with him , feel much more better. back home , with my eyes really red and puffy, mummy went to hug me immediately after knowing what happened. I felt really warmth , for so long I didn't hug her , I told her I love her a lot , I realised I never said that for years. She looked into my eyes and gave a peck at my cheek. Reread the messages we texted , I cried again , the way how you called me baby , I miss it a lot. Now , I won't be able to hear you calling me dear anymore. Without you holding my waist and my hands. Without you hugging me anymore. Without you playing with my hair , without you waking me up from my dream. I feel so lost right now, wondering what are you doing right now , are you still alright ? but that is none of my business. I still miss it when I lie on your chest and you singing to get me to sleep. I miss the talk with your family members and the times when I went out with your family members and dinner with your family members. You have to live on even happier without me alright? cause I believe that you will find a even better girl for yourself. I really miss you a lot but still this is best for us.