Moody day for me.
yesterday night didn't have enough sleep, so today was having a bad mood. I took my old phone since my phone sot, i looked through it. The pictures and messages. This month is may. It is the month when I really know you and get to spend time with you. The photos, which I deleted. Yeah, is sweet, but is the past, so what for keeping it? Although i hesitate for a long time but still i manage to delete them. Messages, should be deleted too but I've no idea why I can't delete them.
Probably, I'm just too sensitive over this month. But i won't because of this forget about baby. Baby, i know I've been giving you cold shoulder. But i just feel bad. Is like you give me almost everything but i couldn't let go of him. I feel so bitch. Baby, are you willing to wait? Give me more time. Baby, i just feel that you really suit a better girl. I feel so pressurize. Baby, I'm not worth you at all. Baby, i feel that I'm changing to another girl that i don't even know. Baby, I'm tired of life. Tired of many things. Tired of trying to be a very good friend but none see the effort i put in. Being a good child, but father didn't manage to care. I feel that many people are leaving me, my close friends, one by one leaving me. Being the hot topic for gossiping. I really don't know what to do but just another break down. But i won't, cause i don't want to be weak anymore. I going to a strong, no matter what. A fake smile or laugh just to cover the unhappiness.
No matter what, I'll still try to meet him tomorrow. Be it run out of house.
love you baby.