Went to meet him , feeling rather afraid. Saw him , talked to him. Yes , I did cry. Talked about the past when we led together , the things I gave him and everything we did together. Is like a scene replaying right in front of me . But patching up , is something impossible. I know I said many mean things , but yeah , once is over is over. Is history , is not going to be alive anymore. You changed, I saw you smoking , but I have no more rights to stop you cause I am not yours anymore. You looked thinner now , not as strong as before. When you walked me home , and I saw the way how you pressed your chest , and seeing you in pain. I felt like crying. I can only wish that you will be alright. Let that be the last time I hold your hand, when I hold your hand , I felt that I am yours once again but once again , I am sorry. My aim goal now is to study hard , relationships? too early to talk about. You can find a better girl , is just matter of time , trust me , you can find a much more better girl who can makes you forget about such a girl like me. She can change you, I am not someone worth to love at all.

I am nothing good but just a piece of shit. Don't treat me so good , cause I don't want end up hurting you. I hate this feeling. I don't worth you thinking about and worried about. Please, don't make me feel so bad.