I am tired , both physically and mentally. farked up. Hate to shed tears. I hate the silence between us. sometimes I really don't want to call you cause whenever we talked , we will definitely end up being unhappy , it is always like that and I am really sick and tired of all these. we can quarrel with small and minor things and I seriously detest this feeling I am having right now. I totally have no mood. I am really feeling low. I am really really tired of all these. cause the history is like going to happen again. fark it.

baby , I apologise for sounding so attitude just now , cause I am really tired and I don't want to pick a fight with you. my studies are really getting bad, I am seriously afraid that I will score low for my examinations and my parents are so strict with my studies that they can stopped me from going out, confiscate my phone and many else. I need to buck up now! baby , I am sorry if I neglected you for times and if I just asked to end the conversation , cause I have to study, exams are coming. I also will rarely meet you and even if I meet you , is just a few hours , I really need to study , I hope you will understand. baby , guess you are already sleeping , I cant get to sleep although I am really tired. I miss you a lot. lets stop quarrelling please.

God, please guide me through all these difficulties please, I love him dearly and I just want him to be happy everyday.

yeah , I love my babyboy.