My heart really pumps very fast when I'm behind the curtains. It pumps even faster when the music started. I was really super nervous! I was about to cry! Gave hugs to everyone wishing everyone the best! During the dance,i gave the best expression i could! After dance, felt so relieved. Everyone had done their best,waiting for our result tomorrow. Syf night tomorrow. I've not been sleeping properly for consecutive 5 days. Went to eat after dance with my awesome seniors! (: really appreciate their presence.
This feeling is not the same as it was before,it wasn't as strong as it was before. I can feel it fading. I just hope that you can be more reasonable. Talk to me nicely. Yes, i love you a lot. But i still need to focus on my studies too so i can't always reply you,call you or even meet you. I'm afraid to send to Australia to study there cause of my shity brain. If this is going to continue, I'm sure this will end really fast. I'm really tired, fking sick of crying over these stuffs. Why can't this be smooth and successful? Why must there be something obstructing it?yes! I love you, love you more than anything else and you should know that clearly too. I'm someone who takes a long time to forget my ex and a long time to accept a new one. I'm someone who cries easily. I'm someone who gets jealous and sensitive easily. I'm someone who gets affected easily. I'm someone who always put it the most effort but end up getting hurt in the end. Crying in th corner,hoping no one else to see the situation I'm in. I just want you to be more understand and look at my situation first.I've a very strong feeling that the history is going to happen again,and the cycle continues. Hate shedding tears. I fking hate my fking self. Goodnight.