went to eat breakfast with family and I AM FORCED TO. kay , then mummy told me passed some stuffs to baby, then after that mummy fetched me to baby's house (: then went to his room and he is still sleeping ! GAHHHHHHHHHHHH ! then after he woke up, went to tamp with his brother and his brother's girlfriend to catch a movie :D after that , walked around the mall and back to baby's home. Then heheheheheehehehehhehehhehehehehehehehe. :D then dinner :D then Ikea , and we were like playing hide and seek ! HOHOOO , then home (:

see how a guy toying a girl's feeling makes me so pissed off. someone who loves you so much , end up hurting , crying in a corner. And you are over there laughing and smiling , what the fuck ? I know how it feels like cause I have been through all these and I know the taste of it. I am really really dumb to cut myself and now leaving those scars with me for months and had never healed. Whenever I see those scars , I will start thinking how foolish am I , and I told myself that I will never be hurt again cause I know my baby boy wont hurt me.

dear, I dislike it when we are having a fight. I really dislike it. You always try to make me smile when I am in a bad mood and always suit my way , you didn't care much about yourself, seriously where to find such boyfriend? I am not a good girlfriend , I swear , I have never been a good girlfriend before but I am trying cause I love you and I want to change to be a better girl friend. You somehow change the way I dress , I speak and the way I stand. You are particularly strict with all these.You are not like the other guys , you are definitely better than them. You are the first guy that I love so deeply. baby , i apologise for my damn attitude, I am sorry. whenever I lie on yr chest , I start to wonder , will I still be able to lie on yr chest in the future ? I don't know , you never know what will happen next, but I am sure that I love you dearly. 15 more days to our one month , baby I love you.