Saturday, April 16, 2011 @ 6:22 AM
I am holding my tears right now, told baby to give me 10
mins , reason being is that I feel like crying and I have the urge to blog . My life isn't perfect , many regrets. I miss my great grandmother , she left the world last year. Saw her photos just now , rewind back to the time when I am being rude to her but she still loves me dearly. I always gave excuses so that I don't have to visit her cause I find that it was a just waste of time , I never thought of such things to happen. But what for to regret now ? is too late. I still could remember the times when she hugged me till I get to sleep , comb my hair and many else. I really hope that she will be back. I miss her miserable , I really miss her a lot. Wondering where is she right now, is she alright ? I just want her to hug me again.
seriously, a lot people has be leaving me , he immigrates to Australia and I have no time to even say goodbye to him , the way I treated him is really damn bad but he doesn't blame me , he even text me several times to tell me how he feels, but I didn't bother. Just hope he will be happier there. I will never forget the times we lead together , the way how you make me laugh everyday.
I really appreciate what God has given me , wonderful friends and wonderful boyfriend. I cried yesterday , cause I am really touched when I know how my true friends have been doing for me. Always standing up for me whatever is going on even though I am in fault. She has never left me once. Dancing , I love dancing , I have more inspiration and motivation to dance now. Need to dance well! wanna be a great dancer! I did something wrong , but no one blames me even though is my fault , I really hope they will scold me but they didn't . My seniors just pat my cheeks and say ' is alright my dear " I really hope they will at least reprimand me for creating such troubles but they didn't. Guilt.
Thanks dear for always being with me , thanks for tolerating me all the times.
