I dont see the importance of me living seriously , it will still the same without me or even better without my appearance. Fk it ! D; it hurts so much when u know that yr close friends were talking bad about you behind yr bad and u trusted them so so so much. It is so shocking and it hurts me really much. thanks for the hugs (: feel much more better. I tried to help u when someone insulted you and even talked bad about you , i feel like i am being make use.

dance practice , i was tolerating the pain in my tummy. on the way home , i just find my vision very blur and fall onto the ground . went to see doc , and went for injection , vomited ): pain , hate my tummy , it caused so much troubles for me. Mummy cried , seeing me in sucha pain , this is the worst feeling ever , i was screaming loud , cause of the pain my tummy causes , is not normal pain, it lasted non-stop , vomited non-stop , i cant even straighten my back. Cant take the pain anymore! my eyes are really red and swollen ): gosh , i miss you deeply. I feel so comfort when u urge me to visit the doctor and urge to know what the doctor told me. if time could turn back , i swear , i will be a better girlfriend , i swear i will listen to you , i swear i will be with you whenever u need me . I miss the time when we spent together , i miss that playground, the swing and having you pushing me. When i almost fainted , u are the one who held me up , snow city , having u rubbing my hands to keep them warm. protecting me from others who bullied me. Sending me back home late at night. Calling me saying u love me and sang a song to get me to sleep. Playing with the lift till we get scolding. It has been so long.

gonna be strong ! Lord , bring me somewhere else please , i dont like the pain here.