Stressed! Didn't study! Gosh. Hope I'll score well! Sad! Went to release my stress! Went to jogging at night. Release of stress. But i happened to walk passed there. Hate it. It was the place where he confessed to me. The scene replay again. The sweet smile from him,the warmth. Fk! Hate this! I detest you! D: Why did i even stead with you? If i didn't I'll be much more happier now. I won't cry everynight,i won't cut myself,i won't think so much already. Bloody hell! Get away from my mind! Which stupid part of my head kept you and my memories in it? I wanna dig it out right now! I don't want to think about you when I'm with him. I love him and i can't bear to hurt him. I hate this! Someone asked me this "will you ever break with your boyfriend and get back to your ex?" nothing came out from my mouth. I've no idea. That question really bothers me a lot. I don't have the guts to answer it at all. I don't know what the outcome will be. Lets nature take course like what kor said. Cried today , thanks sister for comforting me and thanks kor for encouraging me. I'm 14 now! A grown up girl already. Really don't wish to get bother now! Wanna focus on my common test!