I've known the truth. The reason which i always wanted to ask. It Is the past. I've to get on. I really have no courage to get into another relationship. Relationship now to me is just like going to hell. It hurts terribly. Although many times,i wanted to get into another relationship,but if i did that,I'll be hurting them. I just envy those couples who last long. Really envy them. (: I'm tired,not physically but mentally. It will always be the past. I just have to go through all these and tolerate all these. It'll be fine.
And to that woman. Want to badmouth about me? Go ahead! I'm alright with it. Kept bullying my friend when I'm not around right? If i ever see you bullying her I'll not let you off. That's my character! You can hurt me but not my friend. I know what you say about me.
God. I want to cry! I'm really upset and tired of all these. When can my life be peace without any fights? I love him alot but i couldn't get him out of my mind. It takes time to heal but it doesn't seem to work on me. Gotta cheer up! 8 More days to my birthday! Need to be happy! Just want a big teddy bear! So i could hug it (: