hahas (: went to parkway today bought facial things and then i went to esther's house . and saw some people that i dont wish to remember D;

I really want to text you " i am sorry " but i can't . i dont know why . yeahh , is my fault . I should make u feel more secure but instead of feeling secure , i guess i gave u a bad impression of relationships. I am your first and i apologise for making you upset ? but i am glad that you understand (: yesterday night , i was thinking , who i really love ? i will not expose his name out here but i regretted not trusting him D; 14/04/10 . i still can remember the date (: but now he has a better girl , i can't believe i still stalk him D: when i think about me being stupid i feel like stabbing myself . but still , i still miss him alot . is not that i dont talk to you , i am a very talkative girl , but towards the person i love , i wont talk at all . dont talk about the other one , my friend told me that i am just his substitution , and when i know the truth , i feel like killing myself. i make a wrong decision , i trusted the wrong person . he told me every thing but i choose not to believe it till sis told me about it . what the f**k is wrong with me ?! haiis , but everything is too late . i am just sorry ... i just hope sorry can helps things better.

and fuck ! stop assuming and guessing who is my stead or whatever, and stop adding them ! you are a really irritating guy ! is none of your business , this is not about caring or what ? so what if you are jealous ? just shut the fuck up and carry on yr life ! stop calling me and ask why didn't i reply yr text ? simply , I CAN'T BE BOTHERED . so stop bothering me . you are just a brother to me .

After all these tiring relationships , i promise to stay single as long as possible (: i am really sick and tired D; ! is so hurting D; ! but i get pissed easily ... sec 2 is the streaming year , and the important year too ! i will focus on my STUDIES ! and lastly , improve my DANCING skills (: