Well . upset totally , i don't wanna care about it anymore . i am just hurting myself more and more ... i told myself i wont cut myself , but i am sad and the temptation crept to me , i just cant possibility stopped myself from cutting ... well , today , dancing really made me forget about him... waiting for his text , but urmmm , i dont give a damn anymore ... i heard that he is a hongster , and his heart would go to another pretty girl , i am trying my best not to believe and trust him ... but how am i suppose to trust him ? i have no faith in him anymore ... i just know that , i just kept waiting and waiting and i am getting tired and tired ... after dance , i was quite hyper but it doesn't last long , then went arcade , made me forget about everything ( went arcade with jia yi , sheryl and hui yi ! ) quite fun ! haha ! but , i told myself , i am put up with all these , i will endure with all these pain , and i will continue to live like a hyper girl ! I KNOW I CAN DO IT ! so if he wants to text , wants meet or anything , then contact me bahhhs , i am okay with it ... i told myself that i would distanced myself with other guys but why should i even do this uhh ? so i wont distanced myself from guys ...