Sunday, October 24, 2010 @ 5:15 AM

I guess this is my life , retribution , i just have to tolerate all this pains , and cries in a corner every night ...
thats what i can do now ! god , i am sorry , i just want my old life back ... i promise u , i will be a good girl , and less use of my evil and big mouth . I AM SORRY .
that 3 words - I LOVE U , is easy to say out from yr mouth to every girl ... i am waiting everyday but cant u feel or cant u see ? why would guys always goes after pretty girls ? and then get another pleasure from another girl ? how hurt it would be ? a hug from u could makes me alive again. why must u make things to complicated ? should i let go ? when i see how u treated other girls , i will just tear again ... i am too tired , really tired to move on ... why arent there guys who not goes after yr looks , figures , but just yr heart , isn't that wonderful ? cutting isn't the way to resolve these problems... i still can remember alot of wonderful things with you but it seems just to be a past and when the thought that you are gonna do it with other girls , just makes me sad ... i would want to leave this saddsadd place to a freedom place , where is it ? anyone can bring me there ? god , i just want to make the right decision , what should i do now ? everynight , i would pray that he will be treat me like how he treated me before , however , my prayers dont seem to be answered ... probably thats the clue : end it .
well, at this point of time , someone suddenly came to me when i really needed so much help .. tyvm :D i would always try to walk around 2nd level just try to see you . cus yr that silly face makes me happy ... and the messages you sent me could just caused me to smile . you are different from other guys who i know , thats why i dont reply their text .
to me now , i am really frustrated ! i really do envy pretty girls with beautiful hearts , but too bad , i am not .
knowing each other from facebook and stead ? WOW ! IMPRESSIVE ! 2 desperate uhh ? thats why wan a partner so quickly uhh ? no appetite to eat , not feeling well ...
why do u always do this to me ? why ? how come do u act like u dont care about me ? its not suppose to hurt this way ? I NEED U ! tell me are we still together ? tell me do u think we will last forever ? just tell me how u feel ... WHY ? D;