I'm KESANDRA!14th this year! receive my presents on the 20feb. Hate bitches and betrayers.
I LOVE SWEETS,CHOCOLATES,DANCING,
EATING,SMILING,LAUGHING,FRIENDS AND FAMILY ♥ ♥ ♥
everything is gone but I still have to move on.
I miss him.
I have been blaming myself to ask him for ending and now ask him for patch . He dont agree with it , and i thought that i am the one in fault . but when i know that he likes another girl , i was thinking , should i blame myself ? oris he finding me asking him for break as an excuse ? i dont know . but i feel like crying , but when that day , after talking to him , i really cried my heart out . many of u may say that , that are many better guys outside . But if u are in my situation , u wont say this , to me , when i got him , i thought that , he was my right one . I thought i could last really long with him , probably , i put in too much faith that both of us could really last very long . so i dont really care much about this relationship . I still remember him , hugging me , telling me that , he loves me , telling me that i must trust him , i also could remember the times we spent together . Why ? why is he still coming to my mind ? why cant i just forget him ? gankorkor says , go out more with friends will forget him de . but nahhs , not true , i will be reminded again. i will see couple walking together , laughing . He will come to my mind again . i agree that , i am ugly ,i am useless , i have bad attitude , i have nothing good at all . my every drop of tears shed is because , i miss him and love him too much . I stare at the photo we took last time . korkor and gankorkor both went army le . mummy tmr going oversea . I feel that i am useless , i cant make my love one stay with me and caused him not to trust me anymore . I remembered the first day knowing u , i thought that both of us wont be friends at all . But we soon be friends , i thought we wont text , but soon we text . I thought we wont go out together , but we went out together . I thought that we wont be together , but we went together . thinking bad , ha ! i am indeed dumb uhh , really dumb . enough for today (: