Ask me anything http://formspring.me/keslovespapaya I'm tired, in the sense of mentally but not physically. People always tell me this, never put in too much love or else you'll be the one hurt and crying in the end. And I'm always the one get hurt and crying. Your action tells me you don't care about me at all. When I'm drunk, I'm still aware about the surrounding. I've so many bruises around my arms and knees. So thats how you carry your girlfriend and scold her when she's drunk? I'm still able to listen to the surrounding. This call care about me? Wonderful! Fish it. I'm not going to care anymore. History going to happen again, yeah. And i won't tear anymore. Don't tell me that you love me cause i know you don't.



went to eat lunch with lao shu and his friends ! Moody day for me.
yesterday night didn't have enough sleep, so today was having a bad mood. I took my old phone since my phone sot, i looked through it. The pictures and messages. This month is may. It is the month when I really know you and get to spend time with you. The photos, which I deleted. Yeah, is sweet, but is the past, so what for keeping it? Although i hesitate for a long time but still i manage to delete them. Messages, should be deleted too but I've no idea why I can't delete them.
Probably, I'm just too sensitive over this month. But i won't because of this forget about baby. Baby, i know I've been giving you cold shoulder. But i just feel bad. Is like you give me almost everything but i couldn't let go of him. I feel so bitch. Baby, are you willing to wait? Give me more time. Baby, i just feel that you really suit a better girl. I feel so pressurize. Baby, I'm not worth you at all. Baby, i feel that I'm changing to another girl that i don't even know. Baby, I'm tired of life. Tired of many things. Tired of trying to be a very good friend but none see the effort i put in. Being a good child, but father didn't manage to care. I feel that many people are leaving me, my close friends, one by one leaving me. Being the hot topic for gossiping. I really don't know what to do but just another break down. But i won't, cause i don't want to be weak anymore. I going to a strong, no matter what. A fake smile or laugh just to cover the unhappiness.
No matter what, I'll still try to meet him tomorrow. Be it run out of house.
love you baby. I'm sorry dear, sorry to cause you so upset. I'm sorry. I just realise that I've not let him go yet. I just need time, I'm sorry to disappoint you. The part that hurt me most is to see you being hurt by me. I don't mean to, is just that memories don't let me go. I apologise dear. Dear, when i hear you voice, i feel like crying. Seriously, there are so many things i wanna tell you. I know, i didn't text you or care more about you than before. I'm not trying to imply anything. I love you, i do love you. I'm sorry to cause you so heartbroken. Is just because of my that sentence saying i couldn't get over him yet , make you so upset. I feel like slapping my own mouth, i should keep it to myself. Hope everything will be alright.

Just let it be the past.
Easy to say but hard to act it out.
baby, iloveyou.
trust me. Hellooo! ^^
Sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time.
everything is great. And I'm wearing the ring once again. (: 26th is back again. Sorry for making you so upset but all those are gone (: lets lead a happy life alright? Went to meet baby and edmund yesterday, eat breakfast then go bedok point walk walk then went bayshore find edmund's girlfriend. Then find her friend till all pissed off. Baby helps me clean the sand from my shoes, very sweet horhh! Then went parkway, then back to his house. Then saw zhiyang, a toodle. Super cute! Look like la bi xiao xin lehh! Then baby and zhi yang went swimming together! Baby play with him. Super cute! Zhiyang kept smiling at laughing. Then baby carry him up and down, seems to enjoy so much. Then baby try to teach him freestyle by holding his legs, then zhiyang head went into the pool, he was frightened, then cry. :< but he really super cute!
I realise I should not always look at others negative point, after the day with her, she is a nice girl, i won't obstruct her being with him anymore.
I know I've been neglected you guys. Thats why you guys don't talk to me as much as before. I'm sorry. I promise to change to a better friend. I miss dance! I miss my dancemates! :< yesterday was a wonderful day for me. Baby snore snore yesterday! Hehehehe! Pinch his nose! Thanks for making my day so happy. Baby also help me settle some stuffs, so i won't get into any troubles. But anyway, i also not in the wrong lorhh! Thanks baby! I prefer baby went shorter pant, looks younger! HOHO! He going cut his hair soon, hehehehe. Promises are made so that we can ensure it happens. And of course i wanna thank those who have been through with me all these while. I realise many things, so many people around me. I promise to be a grown up girl! (:

GAHHH , GEOGRAPHY PAPER! NOT GOOD ! HARD ! ): NO TIME TO DO BUT I STILL MANAGE TO COMPLETE BUT ALL I ANYHOW DO DE ); DIE DIE DIE ! A1 SAYONARA! CAUGHT BY MY DM TODAY ): EEEEYER ! BUT SHE VERY CUTE LEHH ! HAHAHAHA